It’s been a while!
Launching this blog feels like another chance to breathe. And as I inhale the euphoria of being able to put myself out there again, I also work on exhaling the doubts and anxieties that come along with launching a blog.
Will I be able to maintain it this time?
Can I be diligent enough to post?
Will people be interested?
Am I more committed now than before?
I bear so many insecurities stemming from a long history of launching blogs that I cannot seem to maintain, the last two ones being a book blog then a personal blog.
One word. H I A T U S.
Without any frilly introductions or drama, let me share with you all that the reason my original book blog as well as my personal blog has been quiet and snoring has been because of a hiatus. It was a much needed yet partly involuntary time away from the blogging scene.
But before I dive in deeper, let me first welcome you all to my newest (and hopefully FINAL AND LAST!!!!) space in the interwebs.
To old readers, welcome back and I hope I’m finally here to stay.
To new ones, I’m glad you found me and I’m looking forward to meet all of you.
Heart Via Pages
I was mainly blogging about anything and everything book related back in HEART VIA PAGES. I was on a roll. I was diligently reading and reviewing books as I read them. On January 2017, I got married to my boyfriend of 10 years (but this will be a story for another day) and after that, we had to settle into a new routine as husband and wife. Life got busier but still I kept on going with the blog. I kept on reading. I was even exploring new to me authors and was starting to get sucked in by different YA fantasies during that time. However, I felt like I wanted to talk about other things aside from books. I love books, yes, but it is only one side of me. There came a point where I felt like I was being limited and confined to what I can talk about.
There Goes Trish
And so, THERE GOES TRISH was born! It was a crazy, messy space. But I loved it! It was MY crazy, messy space and I was bringing different sets of people in. My stories were more personal and relatable.
I felt happy about it. I was writing about real people, real experiences and real stories. I felt like it was home.
So, what went wrong exactly?
Best Gift Ever
Nothing went wrong. In fact, I just got the best gift. However, said best gift is also a mommy clinger, milk monster and nap robber little munchkin who just consumed all of my waking days and nights. The moment I gave birth, life just shifted. It was out of my hands and half the time, I was in a constant zombie state especially during the first few weeks. My focus changed and my time had to be managed properly. As a first time mom, I had to learn motherhood from scratch. It was tough, challenging yet rewarding. Mind you, I still continued to read albeit quite slower than before. It’s just that after a read, I can no longer find the energy to draft a review, publish one and interact with other readers. During that time, bookish related drama seems to be happening left and right. It became too overwhelming for me that I had to step back. I was a hormonal momma looking for quiet and relaxation and the bookish community was no longer it.
But despite having my child now, my own flesh and blood, I still cannot deny that I love nurturing and growing my blog babies. But I was hesitant to start. I feared that I might not be able to commit again. And as I was going back and forth the pros and cons of giving birth to a new blog space, I realized that not having started one is way worse than starting one and being gradual and careful in letting it grow. I wasn’t even thinking about how I can engage people. I just wanted to write. And talk. And write some more. I really wanted to create a safe space for everyone to interact – where everyone is free and can share with no judgment. Being a new parent opened my eyes even more to the concept of inclusivity, love for all and acceptance.
So this time, I have decided on a few things.
First, this will be my all in one space. I would not like to limit myself so I will talk about anything and everything. From mommy diaries to current hot reads – this is going to be the whirlwind that is my life right now.
Second, I have decided that I will not be pressuring myself in posting stuff like before. I will when I can. The pressure is just going to be added stress that on my already full plate.
Last, as open as I hope to be in this space, I hope that you, as the reader will feel safe to open up in this space as well as I aim to make it a safe place for everyone.
No holds barred. No judgment. We are all the same. But still very different.
So here we are, back at square one, launching my nth blog and hopefully my last one. In here, I look forward to talk about books, marriage, motherhood, products, coping mechanisms, food, health, self care, entertainment and other things that keep me sane and happy. My goal is to promote positivity and I hope that this space and the little tidbits that this space will hold can provide that for you.